This is an open letter to all of you who have given up on me.
Please remember how much you loved and cared about me in the beginning.
Please remember that a real live beating heart beats inside of this soul.
that breaks into a million rivers of tears that won’t stop
when people walk away and throw me away in the trash like you just did
Please remember the person you walked away from….my kindness, my compassion,
my infectious laugh and giggle
how much i hoped, and longed, and yearned for the promises you held forth to me.
I had my heart so set on those dreams.
When you give up on an Autistic person
especially one who has already been hurt to her limit by people
you place even more huge rocks in our paths that should not be.
you slam shut the very flower we are still striving to become.
you take away our rivers of living joy.
you snuff out the light of the candle we hold in hope of the light that we know is there.
you leave us trapped in the very mire we are trying so hard to climb out of.
No matter what
the universal law of love is this
that love is unconditional
and love never gives up
it always hopes
it always believes in others
it is never rude, nor does it ever demand its own way
it is patient
it is kind
and like the candle in my hand
the flame of love never dies out.
please stop bruising my broken reed.
I need dreams i can not only hope for
but dreams that can finally come true for me.